i had a son...

oh yeah, you heard (errr...read? haha) that right. I had a son, when I was in high school. Kaya lang they (oooh...THEY...haha!) took him away from me. Boohoo. He was such an angel pa naman, and I was such a great mom to him. Promise. Gwapo-gwapo pa my litol (teehee) boy...Uy proud momma. Pero seriously, gwapo talaga sya. Hispanic-mestizo kind of gwapo. Well, ako nanay eh.

Nyahaha! People from high school must be very very puzzled by now. Because they never seen me pregnant. Alangang nabuntis ako over summer break tapos nanganak na agad. haha!! Malala pa sa immaculate conception 'yun..nabuntis and nanganak over the summer break which is less than two months lang. Haha! Okay, I'm not the boy's biological mother...But how I wish na ako na lang. Hahaha! I was only 15 years old then, my folks would've killed me if I got pregnant. haha! Pero dapat aampunin namin 'yun as my boy e. Kaya lang, 'yun nga, I was too young. Sad. Boohoo. As in sa birth certificate, ako na 'yung lalagay na mommy. O kaya 'yung mom ko tapos aadopt ko na lang when i grow older. Kasi I was his mom na kaya noon. The baby slept in my room, I'm the one who fed him (errr..bottle po, malamang. hello?), We watched the TV together, etcetera. Pag nagalburoto s'ya ng late night, puyat ako no...kahit may pasok. Hehe! Ako 'yung alam nyang mommy nya. hehe. Kahit kasama namin sa bahay 'yung real mom (anak ng kasama namin sa bahay ung biological mother) Kaya lang as usual, kumontra sina tito and tita...eh the baby's folks can't afford to raise/support him kaya they have to give him away (adoption...), so they had hid adopted by a priest's sister. Waaaah...super duper mega cry ako nun ha! Almost a year akong nanay to that boy. awww. Ayun, I think of him from time to time...miss ko na. as in. Huling balita namin dun was before we left Cavite, nasa States na daw baby boy ko...*sob*

Wala lang...4 or 5 years old na dapat s'ya ngayon...nag-school na. What does he look like na kaya? Will I see him pa kaya? OA e no. akala mo nanay nya ko talaga. pero I loved that little kiddo as my own. well, inde nga loved kasi...til now nga! hehe.

I used to hum him this to sleep...minsan may 'onting lyrics, pero chorus lang. teehee

You Are My Sunshine

You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other nite, dear,
As I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you
And make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me
To love
regret it all some day;

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

You told me once, dear
You really loved me
And no one else could come between
But now you've left
And love
You have shattered all my dreams;

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
Louisiana my Louisiana
the place where I was borne.
White fields of cotton
-- green fields clover,
best fishingand long tall corn;

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
Crawfish gumbo and jambalaya
the biggest shrimp and sugar cane,
the finest oystersand sweet strawberries
from Toledo Bend to New Orleans;

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.